What is the meaning of life? I want to know. I think I know the answers somedays, and other days the answer escapes me. Somedays I think that the answer to life is as simple as living it. Other days I think it is more complicated than that. I look at things that have happened throughout history and I wonder to myself how amazing life is everyday. I am not a religous person persay, but I do think I am very spiritual. I believe in God. I believe that if you look around, how can you not believe that there is something bigger than anything else out there. I believe that in our lives we have a purpose, a lesson that we want to learn. It is a subconcious thought that drives us everyday. It drives us to want more for ourselves. It drives us to love, to want, to care, to live. It drives the very breath that we take out of the lungs that God gave us to breathe the air that feeds our minds. Look at how different every single person is and at the same time we are all exactly alike. We are looking for acceptance. For belonging. We are looking for things to go our way. Looking for something to happen, even if we don’t know what it is. I think my life’s lesson is consequence. Learning how the choices that I make today will affect my life tomorrow, in a month, in 10 years. It is like smoking. I know it is killing me. Every puff I take off of this little harmless piece of paper with tobacco in it is taking time off of my life. but do I stop? No. Why? Because I am addicted. The choice I am making to smoke is most likely going to have the consequence of my death. And I am making that choice. But if something were to happen to me, like getting cancer, I would do everything I could to prevent the disease from taking my life. And getting cancer is something that isn’t my choice. So the question is Why do we make choices that are harmful to ourselves? Why do we have sex with people we don’t know well? What is it we are looking for to drive us to desire that connection of the human touch? Where did we lose enough respect for ourselves that it doesn’t matter? Why are we cheating ourselves out of something more because we forget about what is important and instead we look at the choice that is most appealing? Why aren’t we looking at why we were put here, and why do we spend all of our time making choices that are hurtful and selfish and mean? And then we wonder why we are alone, and sad, and maybe not feeling like we are living our life the best way that we can. But until you recognize and own up to the choices that you are making, you will just keep making more and more. ANd most of the time, these choices we are making are just a million little reasons or excuses to not look at the deeper meaning, to not look at what is really going on inside, but rather to allow ourselves to get lost in the drama of life because for many of us, that is much easier than getting up in the morning and looking at ourselves in the mirror.
Jason said,
August 23, 2007 at 7:40 pm
We have become a society of people that want “instant gratification”. That is true with the smoking, sex and many other things. It’s what we are turning into. The tough thing is being one of those people that goes against that “norm” to be an outsider. Holding out for sex for the right person, not smoking cause you have a child and how it affects them. Stuff like that is what makes us who we are. I say don’t quit the smoking for yourself only but do it for Jake. You want him to have a mom around for a long time right?
The thing with God is that it is turning into a political issue and not an issue of faith. You are either part of the “Christian Right” or you are part of the “Liberal Left”. For some reason it is tough for us as people to understand and accept that there is a separation in there for some of us. I believe in God. I am a Republican. But I cannot stand all of those on the “C.R.” that turn everything into a battle of faith and crap. Have your own beliefs and faith and go with it. Fuck everyone else.
denise said,
August 24, 2007 at 6:28 am
Being a Christian, I believe that the meaning of life is glorifying God. I disagree with Jason when he says that “the thing with God is turning into a political issue.” It always has been a political issue; our country was founded on basic Christian beliefs. It’s in our Constitution for crying out loud.
God calls us to be proactive in our faith, to live it out and not simply go about our lives without having an effect on others. It’s unfair that those trying to maintain the sanctity of marriage of the life of an unborn child by stating simple facts or lobbying for a change of legislature are lumped together with the same groups who kill a homosexual or bomb an abortion clinic. That’s like saying that all priests are child molesters. The ones that diddle the altar boys certainly make headlines more frequently than the ones who don’t, but generally stating such an asinine accusation points negative light where it doesn’t belong.
Have your own beliefs, but make sure they are based on something. Mature in your faith; become knowledgeable and influential. Everyone has the power to change minds; it comes down to whether or not we choose to act on that power.
kalinotcallie said,
August 24, 2007 at 7:57 pm
I smoke right now but I know that when I have a kid/get pregnant I will never touch another cigarette again. Given, I only do it when I’ve had a little to drink…which I will probably give up for the most part as well when I decide to have a family.
The whole why do we have sex with people that we don’t really know….honey, don’t get me started on this one! HA! (it’s a little thing called drunk and dumb!) Just kidding…
I love that you are writing about something other than surface issues…I really enjoy your blog.
i think my comment is a little random and scattered…but hey, I’m on a few diferent pain meds today! YIPPEE!
glossygirl said,
August 25, 2007 at 6:00 pm
LOL. I love reading your blog too! It is constantly entertaining me, and I feel like you are sitting right there talking to me. Which is funny since I don’t know you!
I normally just write what is on my mind, which seems to be what you do as well. I promise I will keep you entertained with retarded stories of things that seriously shouldnt’ but do cross my mind. 
Hope you got to see your man! I think today was the cheetah heels day?